Thursday, June 5, 2008

Warning: more personal than usual :)

When I look back at the beginning of this blog - October 2007, which started as a way to stay in touch with family and friends who live far away, I did not anticipate the changes to come. My life has become so much bigger than just me. I now have a little girl who depends on me for everything. I worry about teaching her all of the right things, keeping her from the evil of the world, and shielding her from hurt. I worry not only because she will look to both Sean and I for guidance, answers, and for comfort, but also because I do not have it all figure it out. There are still things in life that I struggle with, relationships that I wish were mended, and places I wish I had seen. A persons identity when they have kids seems to stop or at least is put on hold and fairly suddenly (because one can never emotionally prepare for a child), one has to redefine self. I guess I am in the process of redefining myself...To be continued...

4 comments:

Unknown said...

Wow, you've been doing some profound thinking lately. My advice? one day at a time and just do the best you can do. Nothing expects anything more, neither should you of yourself.
Love, Mom

Jen said...

very wise words. you should take them to heart. I just love our Mom's, they do have their moments.

Jen said...

just testing something new

Jen said...

yeah look a picture, I figured it out.